Day One in RO
After watching Sorry, I’m a Girl Too, I suddenly got the urge to play RO.
A little acolyte named Gasper was born in Prontera.
It only took a few hours to get into the twenties. That was fast.
I hope I can become a priest soon, though realistically I probably won’t have that much time to spend on the game.
After a few hours of being the extra person tagging along, I had the feeling this game really needs companions.
Life does too.
Beijing
For the first time, I’m going somewhere with no plan at all. I haven’t even properly bought the train ticket.
There’s a bit of resistance in me. A vague, unexplainable urge to push back against something.
Maybe I’m just overthinking again. Fine. Tomorrow. I’ll deal with it tomorrow.
Pretending to Be Cultured
I seem to understand a little of everything, when in fact I don’t truly understand much at all. Maybe I just like showing off.
All that talk about being refined, artistic, literary—it’s a bad habit. Not even half full, yet still sloshing around loudly.
It’s been a long time since I sat down quietly to read a book, or really think through a question.
Life is so still, and I am so restless. That’s not good. Not good at all.
It’s time to change that.
The Past
On the road, I passed a place that once left a deep impression on me.
A lot of old memories came back, along with the feelings I had then.
Yesterday I saw my ex-boyfriend. He has a new girlfriend. He’s still the same as ever.
My mood turned strangely complicated all of a sudden. The truth is, I probably could have been happy with him too.
But I was never willing to settle, so I kept chasing after something else. And now I’m not any happier.
Forget it.
It was never as if it had to be you.